I'm sitting here tonight thinking about how quickly time passes when you're a momma. I'm thinking about becoming the mother of two in 7 months, and how much is going to change between now and then. I only have that short amount of time left with just my first-born, my AJ. I'm trying to soak it all in, and find moments every day where him and I are truly bonding. I'm trying to embrace the terrible two's and not focus on the negatives in his behavior, even when they seem to be outnumbering (by the millions) the positives.
I'm trying to place this life completely in God's hands and stop trying so hard to control every situation on my own- because the reality is I CAN'T do this on my own. All of these things that mean so much to me, I can't do them without His constant, daily, hourly help. I've felt His tug on my heart extra lately, His gentle reminders that I need to slow-down, take a deep breath, and enjoy what's right in-front of me.. no matter what it may look like.
Most days it looks like a kitchen that hasn't been swept all week, with a sink full of dishes that are starting to smell pretty gross, a dog that's whining because I forgot to feed him (again), piles of dirty clothes laying everywhere, and a little boy who doesn't want me to clean anything! I'm very wired to clean, and in recent months I've had to ask myself why it's 'so important' for me to have a perfect house that smells wonderful all the time. I've found no answer- there is absolutely no one that cares what my house looks like when they come over! Ayden & Jaymes don't EVER care how clean the house is, they just want my quality time!!
So, if you're offended by messes, please don't come to our home. It's probably going to be a mess, but what I care about most, is that the hearts of the ones I love dearly are being fully nourished, and that the time I spend with them is completely undivided. Life is way way way too short to worry about these little things, so I'm putting them behind me and looking forward- to a messier future. :)
Wow I can really really relate to this post! I try so hard to keep up with the kids and school and the house work but just can't ever get the house clean. My brother is always complaining about it but no one else seems to care. Anyways I just wanted to let you know you are not alone with the messy house thing.
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