Baby # 2!

Almost 14 weeks in, I'm going to stop and reflect on the beginning of this pregnancy! Somewhere around 7.5 weeks ago I took a positive pregnancy test, and then another! I was floored because all summer long I had 'thought' I was pregnant, but never took any positive tests.. I guess I just fully expected it to be negative like they had been for the past 6 months! However, I went from floored to excited very quickly!!! So many thoughts.. 'I'm having a baby, my SECOND baby, I'll have two!!! Ayden will be a big brother! Who do I call first? I need to schedule a doctors appt, I need vitamins, THAT'S why I feel so sick..' etc, etc, ETC!

And then it really kicked in (the hormones, that is) about a week later. Sick as a dog.. I couldn't eat anything with a scent, or a flavor. That left me to plain pringles and 7-up. Every morning I would roll over and shove about 6 pringles in my mouth, and have a sip of water. Then at lunch I would eat a few more, and try soooo hard to have a few bites of something (anything) nutritious. Dinner time was the worst. I would gag as I made dinner, and then not even be able to join Jaymes & Ayden while they ate. HORRIBLE. I am so happy to say that I survived my first trimester, and I can eat food now (so long as there's no garlic in it.) For whatever reason, garlic, onion, avocado, and coffee made me more nauseous than anything else at the beginning. And garlic still does, big time!! I will stay clear of that stuff for a good long while, I'm sure! :)


Baby has been perfectly healthy through it all, Praise the Lord!! Because I don't know how I provided "nutrients" to this child via pringles. HA!!

Sometime in early December we will find out gender!!!! :) :) We're so excited & impatient. This time we're hoping for girl, but will be more than happy with a boy too!! As we did with Ayden, we will keep the name a secret until delivery!

This baby will be here in 6 months. Holy moly.

thoughts a mile a minute

I'm sitting here tonight thinking about how quickly time passes when you're a momma. I'm thinking about becoming the mother of two in 7 months, and how much is going to change between now and then. I only have that short amount of time left with just my first-born, my AJ. I'm trying to soak it all in, and find moments every day where him and I are truly bonding. I'm trying to embrace the terrible two's and not focus on the negatives in his behavior, even when they seem to be outnumbering (by the millions) the positives.

I'm trying to place this life completely in God's hands and stop trying so hard to control every situation on my own- because the reality is I CAN'T do this on my own. All of these things that mean so much to me, I can't do them without His constant, daily, hourly help. I've felt His tug on my heart extra lately, His gentle reminders that I need to slow-down, take a deep breath, and enjoy what's right in-front of me.. no matter what it may look like.

Most days it looks like a kitchen that hasn't been swept all week, with a sink full of dishes that are starting to smell pretty gross, a dog that's whining because I forgot to feed him (again), piles of dirty clothes laying everywhere, and a little boy who doesn't want me to clean anything! I'm very wired to clean, and in recent months I've had to ask myself why it's 'so important' for me to have a perfect house that smells wonderful all the time. I've found no answer- there is absolutely no one that cares what my house looks like when they come over! Ayden & Jaymes don't EVER care how clean the house is, they just want my quality time!!

So, if you're offended by messes, please don't come to our home. It's probably going to be a mess, but what I care about most, is that the hearts of the ones I love dearly are being fully nourished, and that the time I spend with them is completely undivided. Life is way way way too short to worry about these little things, so I'm putting them behind me and looking forward- to a messier future. :)